I miss you as a baby. I miss the way our entire world seemed to be open ahead of us, and the honor and responsibility I felt to be the one who would help shape you into who you would become. Our family was just beginning, and you had opened up a whole new world to me. I miss the softness of your skin, and having your little body so close to mine as I nursed you or fed you a bottle. I miss watching your eyelashes flutter and close as I rocked you and read you bedtime stories, and the weight of your body as you fell asleep in my arms.…]
If you've ever been through a difficult time (in other words, you are human) then you know how a situation can overwhelm and seemingly take over your life. Whether you are 15, 25, 35 or 70... when there is conflict, hardship, difficulty or loss, it can sometimes seem like that is all there is. And when… Continue reading Hardship and Hope
Envision any female-centered post divorce plot and you'll likely see some variation of the following: ACT I: Woman sets out to forget all her worries; letting loose by getting out on the town, sleeping with simple, beautiful, younger men, drinking and having the most frivolous time of their life. In an attempt to fill the void, she desperately clings on to… Continue reading Jump Grow Love
Four months ago, my husband moved out of the house and into an apartment a few blocks away. Six weeks ago, I sold the home we had lived in for eight years and bought a house across town. It's overwhelming to look back and think about all that has transpired in the last few months.… Continue reading I’ll Take the Cold Coffee
Over drinks with a friend who happens to be going through the same situation as I the other night, the conversation naturally centered around what we are both reluctantly trudging through; Divorce. With Children. And all the intense suckiness that tags along with the process. Inevitably, as the conversation evolved, we came to a topic that I have… Continue reading My Loneliness Has a First Name
You know that feeling...the one where you find yourself in a certain place you've been before, and a familiar scent or song or wind hits you and it's like you have been transported to the time you were there before - and all the feelings from that time come rushing back. The present moment suspends and… Continue reading The Current
And somewhere beneath the chaos, as time goes by and the fog begins to clear, you will discover the gift that was born from the painstaking but faithful decision you made. And when that happens, you can smile, remember what I just told you, and see for yourself...that it is all going to be okay.
And then, I go back to the conversation... one of the most difficult and most important things I will ever do. And suddenly I'm less concerned about all those things spinning in my head, because I'm overcome by the sharp, piercing, radiating pain in my heart.